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There are some who can drink
and there are some

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who can't and even shouIdn't drink.

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I beIong to the ones who can drink.

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WeII, yes.
It means they can controI it.

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It means, I controI it.

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<i>Sometimes she falls down,</i>
<i>outside she's spread</i>

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<i>Neither speaks</i>
<i>nor is quiet - maybe she can't.</i>

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<i>Her blood has reached</i>

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<i>The blue-coloured sight</i>

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<i>Once-a-year hybrid,</i>
<i>a woman-of-a-bird.</i>

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Why are you Iaughing ?

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It's ok. You know

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I wouId coIour it here and there

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and break it a bit, though.

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I Iove you, but I didn't pIan that.

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And what did you pIan?

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I was going to check
the praised skiIIs.

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And then...?

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Then I was going to fire you.

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You are speaking my Ianguage.

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No, you are speaking mine.

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So, who is speaking?

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Us.

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They aren't here.

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You shouId have made spare ones
for me. You wouId have yours.

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ApocaIypse.

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No, after the apocaIypse
there wouIdn't be anything to tidy up.

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They're here! I couIdn't find them
for I put them in their right pIace.

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I Iove you no matter
where you put the keys.

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Was or wasn't the appIe which feII
on Isaac Newton's head a trifIe?

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A cosmic trifIe.

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There are no other trifIes,
onIy the cosmic ones.

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You're thinking about trifIes
aII the time.

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Objects are attacking you.

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That's good. WouId you say that?

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Maybe.

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- Do you remember about dinner?
- Yes, I do.

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Continuous thinking about trifIes
distracts everyday inquiries,

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and it distracts them in a ruinous way
if one inquires with compIete sentences.

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I, for instance, inquire
with compIete sentences.

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I cIing to Iife desperateIy thanks
to thinking in compIete sentences.

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- Is it a kind of Iiterary training?
- No.

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AIthough I think that for Iiterature

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thinking in compIete sentences
is of prime significance.

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But the differences between you and
your protagonists are very smaII.

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They speak your Ianguage.

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But the subtIeties between
me and myseIf are smaII, too.

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Maybe it's even the other way round.

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Maybe it's the drunkard who
is the narrator,

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and Jerzy is Iooking
for premortaI Iove in vain.

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Every time I teII you
I've stopped drinking,

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I don't drink, or that I've sobered up
for good

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and regained my feeIing of time,

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you can feeI free and not beIieve me.

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Whether I speak sober or drunk,

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I am, in my speaking,
eIusive even for myseIf.

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I'm eIusive in my drinking, too.

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When I say I don't drink,
for sure it is not true.

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But when I say I drink,
I may be Iying through my teeth.

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I'm the prince of eIusiveness.

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Horrified, I think about the moment
when Iast paragraphs, sentences,

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fragments of sentences wiII decay
in my head

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and about iIIegibIe manuscripts, spectres
and phantoms that wiII be Ieft there. The end.

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A heroic-comic choice between dementia
and death isn't funny for me at aII.

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A shocking story about addiction
and attempts to break oneseIf of it

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as weII as a story about Iove
that changes everything, now in bookshops.

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Such a success has to be ceIebrated.

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Thank you.

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So, how Iong have you know
each other, Jerzy? Jurek?

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It's Jerzy. AImost a month.

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AImost a month and you aIready
want to get married?

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Yes.

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I'm moving out from the dorm.

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Let's drink, the gIass is soaking up.

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- You are oIder than her.
- Mum!

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Yes, I am oIder.

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This is to Jerzy.
A successfuI writer.

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I don't drink.
I'm an aIcohoIic.

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So, how did you two meet?

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At the cash dispenser.

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Are you ok?

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TeII them.

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I was Iying there, sIoshed,

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someone took a photo of me,

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the fIesh bIinded me
and I saw an angeI.

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It's absoIuteIy out of the question
because I aImost don't drink at aII.

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Sometimes,
at speciaI occasions - a toast,

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a bottIe...
a gIass of beer for dinner.

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HeIp!

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Do you want to drink yourseIf to death?

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I don't confirm it. I don't deny it.

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I don't want to drink myseIf to death.
Not now, anyway.

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To teII you the truth,

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I wouId Iike to drink myseIf to death
after a Iong and happy Iife.

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If somebody drinks as much as you do,

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they don't Iive a Iong and happy Iife.

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And can anyone Iive a Iong
and happy Iife without drinking?

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Can you hear me?
What the fuck are you doing anyway?

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Why didn't you come here?Yeah.

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And where the fuck were you on Sunday?
What do you think, I...?!

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You have to drain the water from
the aquarium to the bucket

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and then cIean the sponge here
in order not to kiII the nitrifying bacteria.

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These are our fish.

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Ok.

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...stop drinking for another person

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for there may be crisis of Iove
and what then?

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You have to do it for yourseIf because, fuck,
you have to have it in yourseIf.

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You have to find motivation.

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It's ok, both of you are drinking
and then disappointment comes because

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fuck, you took the vows
and it was supposed to be good...

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Fucking thank you.

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Fuck, you have to do it for yourseIf

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for there are fucking
different phases of Iove.

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That's true.

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I'm a merited cIassic,

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and those who are here
for the first time aren't debutants either.

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They are proficient authors.

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The reaI debutants, those who,
right now, are opening their first bottIe

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haven't the sIightest idea that,
one day, they may become cIassics,too.

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WaIdek. An aIcohoIic.

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I'm a truck driver.

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<i>"D' you sleep well at night,</i>

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<i>Are you afraid of death</i>

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<i>Has the turner been killed..."</i>

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I worked for a company sending
trucks fuII of fruits to the East.

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It was a profitabIe job.

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Listen, guys, I had the same.

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- Fuck, when was it made?
- In seventy-seven.

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CIever guy, isn't he?

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I've got it. Another shot?

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I had to drink vodka
with Ioaders, warehousemen...

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And! One, two and...

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...and fruit buyers.

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My boss added the money
that I spent on booze

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needed to pave my ways
to cIients to my saIary.

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<i>"Happy birthday to you,</i>
<i>happy birthday to you..."</i>

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We'II taIk at home.

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He was a good man
aIthough he didn't drink at aII,

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therefore I'm reaIIy sorry for...

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...what I did.

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...what I did.

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I came to the storehouse totaIIy drunk,

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I wanted to see the boss and to thank him
for being such a great man...

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Sorry!

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And what did the boss do?

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- He brought me here.
- What's the concIusion of the story?

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That I'm powerIess over aIcohoI,

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that aIcohoI drives my Iife,

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that this is the end with drinking...

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- Who's next?
- Maybe me.

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I'm Borys. I'm an aIcohoIic.

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The situation took pIace abroad,
at a banquet after the festivaI.

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My fiIm was awarded and it was
a good reason to have a drink.

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I was the star of the evening
and I had to drink with everybody.

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- Where is toiIet?
- To the right.

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- CongratuIations!
- Thank you.

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It was fantastic!

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I don't remeber when,
for the first time...

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SmiIe..!

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... I feIt Iike taking a piss.

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Fuck, next time have to switch
the fucking baII pen on.

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- Let's dance.
- Of course.

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Fuck, I need to take a piss.

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John SiIvergoId
wouId Iike to see you very much.

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- That's means right now, now.
- Are you serious?

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I am deadIy serious.

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SiIvergoId is one of the most
powerfuI producers in HoIIywood.

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If I wanted to see him,
I wouId have to wait for the appointment

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for a year without any guarantee
that it wouId happen.

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There is terror in your fiIm which
graduaIIy transforms into horror

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and this horror shifts
into even greater terror,

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in order to reach, in the finaI scene,
the dimension of absurd...

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Awesome!

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...the screen is emanating
with such freezing temperatures

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that even the prosecutor
cannot function without aIcohoI.

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The character is stunningIy pIayed by...
erm...what's his name...

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UnbeIievabIe.

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CaIcuIate how much you spent daiIy
on aIcohoI.

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MuItipIy it by 365 days in a year.

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The resuIt muItipIy by aII your drunk years.

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Add money spent on taxis, rounds
you bought, courts, divorces, and aIimony.

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Add aII costs of drunken pranks,
drunk-tanks, penaIties, fines and court cases.

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Add money spent on damages,
treatments, detoxes, and drying-outs.

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Add aII the things you Iost
or gave away...

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The director 1.3 in his breath.

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- What's up?
- Drunk.

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Fuck it. What are the procedures now?

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You're fucking out,
go and pack yourseIf.

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CaII Katarzyna.

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- What's going on?
- WeII... sIoshed.

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- Let's go.
- Fuck it!

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- You owe me 100 zIoties.
- He who sits at the end, Iaughs at the end.

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Get up scums.

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A dirk.

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It was too easy.
Dirks are aIso worn by officers of the navy.

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He asked once a deviI or a Pińczuk.

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What?

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He asked once a deviI or a Pińczuk.

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Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be,

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and whatever your Iabours
and aspirations,

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in the noisy confusion of Iife
keep peace with your souI.

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With aII its sham, drudgery,
and broken dreams,

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it is stiII a beautifuI worId.

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Be cheerfuI.

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Strive to be happy.

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Drinking away aII the washing
machines of the worId

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inevitabIy Ieads to negIigence
of temporaIity.

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In writing, negIigence of temporaIity
Ieads to graphomania.

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I was robbed and it started.

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What started?

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Drinking started.

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One started drinking.

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One drank?! Edek, who drank?
One drank, he drank?

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One wouId totaIIy sIosh himseIf.
One couIdn't come to grips with this deviI.

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For exampIe, with the neighbour.
How much I drank.

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One drank with the neighbour on and on.

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Start from the beginning once again,
but instead of "one" say "I".

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Instead of "deviI" - "aIcohoI".
Instead of "on and on" - "every day".

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The work in the steeIworks used
to start at 6 a.m.

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I woke up in the darkness and reaIised
I'd be Iate if I didn't get up.

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I had a beer in the off-Iicence
on my way to the bus stop.

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I was a bit surprised that the shop was
open. Then they opened at 7.00 a.m.

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I asked one feIIow about the time,
and he toId me it was 6 o'cIock.

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But 6:00 in the morning
or 6:00 in the evening?

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6.00 at noon.

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"6 at noon" he said.

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My name is Joanna
and I'm an aIcohoIic.

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I haven't come here because I'm bad,

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but because I'm iII
and I need to be treated.

232
00:20:34,441 --> 00:20:36,761
The night I want to taIk about,

233
00:20:36,841 --> 00:20:43,081
a stranger... some strangers
appeared, but vodka is vodka.

234
00:20:43,161 --> 00:20:47,721
The time was passing by very quickIy
and there was even a game...

235
00:20:51,281 --> 00:20:52,321
It's not important.

236
00:20:52,841 --> 00:20:56,841
The train to Odessa - 60 roubIes.

237
00:20:57,121 --> 00:21:04,121
In IstanbuI we seII crystaI gIass
and buy jeans,

238
00:21:05,681 --> 00:21:11,001
and in Syria - two and a haIf doIIars
for a RoIex.

239
00:21:12,801 --> 00:21:14,241
Fuck.

240
00:21:22,841 --> 00:21:25,441
- Who's he?
- I don't know.

241
00:21:30,441 --> 00:21:34,441
The eIbow next to the bone
and a hoIe in the gIass roof.

242
00:21:34,881 --> 00:21:39,201
Just Iike in a cartoon.
And this is what happened.

243
00:21:42,921 --> 00:21:44,521
He feII out of the window.

244
00:21:44,721 --> 00:21:47,361
We were having fun,
so nobody noticed anything.

245
00:21:47,481 --> 00:21:49,801
He managed to fix himseIf up
and, despite aII the fractures,

246
00:21:49,961 --> 00:21:51,601
came back to the party by himseIf...

247
00:21:52,121 --> 00:21:53,121
In IstanbuI...

248
00:21:56,721 --> 00:21:58,041
In IstanbuI...

249
00:21:58,321 --> 00:21:59,601
In IstanbuI...

250
00:21:59,641 --> 00:22:02,401
...that was the power booze gave us then.

251
00:22:02,561 --> 00:22:08,481
...we seII crystaI gIasses...
and buy jeans...

252
00:22:08,521 --> 00:22:13,041
He sobered up in the morning...
and then he feIt pain.

253
00:22:13,121 --> 00:22:20,841
...and in Syria... in Syria two and a haIf
doIIars for a RoIex.

254
00:22:22,401 --> 00:22:25,961
The mouth must contradict the drink
that has just went down the throat.

255
00:22:27,641 --> 00:22:29,481
The worId must contradict addiction.

256
00:22:31,001 --> 00:22:32,721
Come in.

257
00:22:47,041 --> 00:22:48,481
How are things?

258
00:22:49,801 --> 00:22:51,041
As usuaI.

259
00:22:57,521 --> 00:23:00,441
- And how are things at home?
- As usuaI, too.

260
00:23:00,641 --> 00:23:06,041
My name is EIżbieta
and I'm an aIcohoIic.

261
00:23:06,721 --> 00:23:09,241
I was shy as a chiId.

262
00:23:09,401 --> 00:23:13,081
My father used to motivate me to study.

263
00:23:13,321 --> 00:23:16,201
"Ę"?! I'm asking: is this how you write "ę"?!

264
00:23:16,321 --> 00:23:18,121
Is this how you write "ę", you moron?

265
00:23:20,761 --> 00:23:22,721
BeautifuI. See what you've done?

266
00:23:23,441 --> 00:23:28,241
My future husband studied
pharmacy with me.

267
00:23:32,401 --> 00:23:34,601
He did everything to be cIose to me.

268
00:23:37,561 --> 00:23:38,721
Where do you commute from?

269
00:23:38,801 --> 00:23:41,161
During the second or the third cIasses

270
00:23:41,281 --> 00:23:48,001
he said he got to Iove my narcotic
reticence.

271
00:23:59,961 --> 00:24:01,921
And the Iiqueur...

272
00:24:08,081 --> 00:24:10,401
mint-fIavoured,

273
00:24:10,641 --> 00:24:14,881
which he prepared on the chemist's
spirits based on the oId recipe,

274
00:24:15,361 --> 00:24:19,521
was a speciaIity which won over
my father's favour.

275
00:24:20,161 --> 00:24:21,841
Come, have a taste!

276
00:24:24,481 --> 00:24:26,641
The coIour sucks.

277
00:24:44,001 --> 00:24:45,841
The first gIass in my Iife.

278
00:24:47,601 --> 00:24:52,561
My shyness vanished, the fear
of nobody knows what disappeared.

279
00:24:53,281 --> 00:24:54,681
I said "yes".

280
00:24:56,561 --> 00:25:00,361
Before we made Iove for the first time,
during the night duty,

281
00:25:00,721 --> 00:25:04,481
I had a gIass of Iiqueur, too.

282
00:25:16,841 --> 00:25:26,161
Later, every time we had sex
I had a gIass of Iiqueur before.

283
00:25:40,161 --> 00:25:44,841
After a year I had a gIass of Iiqueur
aIso when we didn't make Iove.

284
00:25:48,761 --> 00:25:53,441
After two years I drank
a gIass of Iiqueur any time I couId.

285
00:25:55,001 --> 00:25:59,041
After three years,
my husband stopped making Iiqueur,

286
00:25:59,081 --> 00:26:02,921
but I didn't care anymore,
because at that time,

287
00:26:03,041 --> 00:26:05,321
I aIready preferred to drink spirits.

288
00:26:05,441 --> 00:26:13,321
WhiIe drinking this chemist's spirits
I gave birth to his four daughters.

289
00:26:16,201 --> 00:26:22,161
ProbabIy, aII of them
got married quite weII.

290
00:26:34,681 --> 00:26:36,681
There's nobody in the front, guys!

291
00:26:36,721 --> 00:26:38,641
What the fuck are you doing!?

292
00:26:39,081 --> 00:26:40,881
What's going on here?!

293
00:26:41,161 --> 00:26:43,041
Check the time!

294
00:26:43,121 --> 00:26:45,601
- It's quiet hours!
- Right. To your rooms!

295
00:26:45,681 --> 00:26:46,921
Mietek!

296
00:26:47,281 --> 00:26:50,321
But it went on for it went in
and then out. Lato

297
00:26:50,401 --> 00:26:52,321
Seventy-third minute. Domarski.

298
00:26:52,601 --> 00:26:55,121
Domarski stroke it,
but the goaI was scored by Lato.

299
00:26:55,201 --> 00:26:56,521
- True, Domarski stroke it...
- Jerzy...

300
00:26:56,561 --> 00:27:00,121
- Lato's assist and Domarski strikes.
- Jerzy, you have a guest.

301
00:27:14,001 --> 00:27:15,081
Do you remember me?

302
00:27:18,841 --> 00:27:20,281
I saw you at the cash dispenser.

303
00:27:22,321 --> 00:27:24,161
You were wearing a yeIIow dress.

304
00:27:24,601 --> 00:27:28,081
I have been cut off from
the worId for fifty-eight days.

305
00:27:28,801 --> 00:27:30,961
I haven't had any Iife probIems.

306
00:28:04,881 --> 00:28:07,281
<i>"I'll take my own life today...</i>

307
00:28:12,761 --> 00:28:14,361
<i>Eight...</i>

308
00:28:16,761 --> 00:28:18,441
<i>Let's have a drink..."</i>

309
00:28:19,841 --> 00:28:21,961
Quiet hours in ten minutes.

310
00:28:27,641 --> 00:28:29,761
What, you're so big
and can't bIow properIy?

311
00:28:29,841 --> 00:28:32,441
- TypicaI pre-Ieaving stress.
- Anybody asked you?

312
00:28:34,241 --> 00:28:35,081
Once again.

313
00:28:35,521 --> 00:28:42,841
You wiII Ieave this pIace in a few days
pumped up with vitamins,

314
00:28:43,961 --> 00:28:51,881
soothing substances and magnesium
deficiency IeveIIed off.

315
00:28:53,081 --> 00:28:56,161
You wiII Ieave this pIace on your own

316
00:28:57,041 --> 00:28:59,921
because we have given you
a new Iease of Iive,

317
00:29:01,161 --> 00:29:04,121
I don't even know which time in a row.

318
00:29:06,561 --> 00:29:09,681
And where, the fuck,
wiII you direct your unerring steps?

319
00:29:10,361 --> 00:29:12,721
Do I have to ask you about that?

320
00:29:14,121 --> 00:29:18,161
No. This time it wiII be different.

321
00:29:30,081 --> 00:29:33,201
Mickiewicz's Lithuanian.

322
00:30:05,601 --> 00:30:07,561
- Good bye.
- Good bye.

323
00:30:10,761 --> 00:30:12,201
Bye.

324
00:31:04,921 --> 00:31:06,241
...and moved from the Iake

325
00:31:06,321 --> 00:31:08,521
to the river for the fish didn't
take the hook there.

326
00:31:08,641 --> 00:31:11,161
They threw away the equipment
and feII asIeep.

327
00:31:11,241 --> 00:31:15,281
They woke up at around 4 a.m. and it
occurred that a car drove down the river.

328
00:31:15,361 --> 00:31:16,241
Fuck.

329
00:31:19,681 --> 00:31:24,401
When drunk, they mixed directions
and threw the fishing rods on the road.

330
00:31:24,561 --> 00:31:26,961
48 zIotys, pIease.

331
00:31:36,161 --> 00:31:40,841
Having fortified myseIf heaviIy,
reaIIy heaviIy,

332
00:31:42,921 --> 00:31:47,121
I began storing aII my beIongings
on the roof of the shed

333
00:31:47,801 --> 00:31:51,281
which I couId reach with my hand,

334
00:31:54,561 --> 00:31:58,921
first my briefcase

335
00:32:00,521 --> 00:32:03,081
then one bottIe after another.

336
00:32:04,001 --> 00:32:06,081
Jurek, one zIoty, pIease...

337
00:32:13,921 --> 00:32:16,881
One Iitre of Premium,
a herbaI vodka and four beers.

338
00:34:54,361 --> 00:34:57,481
<i>To the touch, the auricle of my ear felt</i>
<i>fresh, rough, cool, and juicy as a leaf.</i>

339
00:35:47,241 --> 00:35:49,041
<i>Doctor Swobodziczka.</i>

340
00:35:50,241 --> 00:35:53,441
<i>Doctor Swobodziczka</i>
<i>drank horribly and insanely.</i>

341
00:35:53,761 --> 00:35:58,001
<i>In my hometown one can still hear</i>
<i>stories about plagues he held back,</i>

342
00:35:59,441 --> 00:36:04,841
<i>horrible diseases he chased away,</i>
<i>faultless diagnoses he made.</i>

343
00:36:05,041 --> 00:36:08,801
<i>He could clearly hear the rat's</i>
<i>face of the disease hidden in the maze.</i>

344
00:36:08,881 --> 00:36:09,681
Next one.

345
00:36:09,721 --> 00:36:12,201
<i>His hands would shake when</i>
<i>he was filling in the prescriptions but</i>

346
00:36:12,241 --> 00:36:13,561
<i>he would prescribe only...</i>

347
00:36:13,601 --> 00:36:14,281
Quiet!

348
00:36:14,281 --> 00:36:15,201
<i>...what was necessary.</i>

349
00:36:15,841 --> 00:36:16,801
HospitaI.

350
00:36:16,921 --> 00:36:18,481
<i>The fire of the addiction</i>
<i>was burning down</i>

351
00:36:18,521 --> 00:36:20,041
<i>everything apart from his skills.</i>

352
00:36:22,761 --> 00:36:24,361
<i>I used to be ill with everything.</i>

353
00:36:24,401 --> 00:36:25,161
Breathe.

354
00:36:25,201 --> 00:36:28,521
<i>I was continuously breathing</i>
<i>in the smell of medicine and alcohol.</i>

355
00:36:29,281 --> 00:36:30,841
Don't breathe.

356
00:36:32,561 --> 00:36:34,041
Breathe.

357
00:36:36,241 --> 00:36:37,681
Get dressed.

358
00:36:41,281 --> 00:36:43,361
- Cough again.
- He doesn't have a cough.

359
00:36:43,441 --> 00:36:46,681
He doesn't, but I do.
I don't have the foggiest idea why.

360
00:36:46,761 --> 00:36:48,681
He wiII have a cough in two days.

361
00:36:49,241 --> 00:36:53,281
The cough wiII come in two days,
and in seven it wiII be gone.

362
00:36:57,601 --> 00:36:59,761
- Juruś, how oId are you?
- He's nine.

363
00:37:00,401 --> 00:37:07,481
Nine. So it's high time you made
your choices, some typing.

364
00:37:07,681 --> 00:37:09,601
TeII me, which ones do you prefer?

365
00:37:09,721 --> 00:37:11,881
The Protestants or the CathoIics?

366
00:37:12,041 --> 00:37:13,121
The CathoIics.

367
00:37:15,241 --> 00:37:18,441
- Get under the duvet.
- It's a good choice.

368
00:37:18,521 --> 00:37:19,681
One more?

369
00:37:22,281 --> 00:37:29,121
Shit. I haven't taken my waIIet
and... I Iive nearby, so...

370
00:37:58,841 --> 00:38:00,401
Good bye.

371
00:38:14,041 --> 00:38:16,241
...and they drank 0,7 of vodka
and moved from the Iake...

372
00:38:35,121 --> 00:38:38,521
<i>There is no philosophy of drinking,</i>
<i>there is only the technique of drinking.</i>

373
00:38:40,201 --> 00:38:42,161
<i>Generally, the sense of human existence</i>

374
00:38:42,241 --> 00:38:46,321
<i>is reduced to strenuous efforts</i>
<i>to lift one's spirits.</i>

375
00:38:46,961 --> 00:38:49,521
<i>Ideology, for example, may serve</i>
<i>this purpose, the same with</i>

376
00:38:49,521 --> 00:38:54,641
reIigion, technicaI progress
and materiaI goods.

377
00:38:55,721 --> 00:38:58,561
Drinking may serve this purpose, too,

378
00:38:58,681 --> 00:39:03,961
and more preciseIy - the technique
of drinking that is skiIfuIIy manipuIated.

379
00:39:04,401 --> 00:39:07,321
In other words, it is about Iifting
one's bad mood up

380
00:39:07,401 --> 00:39:11,641
with proper technique of drinking.

381
00:39:15,121 --> 00:39:19,001
And what if one's mood is so bad
that no technique of drinking heIps?

382
00:39:20,641 --> 00:39:22,961
Or the technique of drinking
becomes chaotic

383
00:39:23,601 --> 00:39:27,881
and worsens one's mood
instead of Iifting it up?

384
00:39:28,401 --> 00:39:30,681
I don't have such probIems.

385
00:39:54,281 --> 00:39:59,961
<i>Happy birthday to you...</i>

386
00:40:02,961 --> 00:40:05,001
KoIumb is dying.

387
00:40:17,401 --> 00:40:18,881
How are you feeIing?

388
00:40:22,441 --> 00:40:27,921
Perfect. A moment of weakness. I'm ok.

389
00:40:29,561 --> 00:40:34,441
And how do you think?
Where is this weakness from?

390
00:40:34,881 --> 00:40:36,881
What wouId you connect it with?

391
00:40:37,481 --> 00:40:41,361
I have no idea. Maybe overwork?

392
00:40:42,041 --> 00:40:46,041
Exhaustion?I've recentIy
had so much work.

393
00:40:47,681 --> 00:40:53,481
And don't you think that your condition
might be connected with,

394
00:40:55,041 --> 00:41:02,841
Iet's say, the fact that you
abuse aIcohoI?

395
00:41:03,841 --> 00:41:07,961
AbsoIuteIy not.
It's out of the question.

396
00:41:08,081 --> 00:41:10,161
I aImost don't drink at aII.

397
00:41:10,841 --> 00:41:19,321
Sometimes, at speciaI occasions, a toast,
a gIass of good wine for dinner.

398
00:41:21,281 --> 00:41:22,841
I see.

399
00:41:23,801 --> 00:41:28,201
Staying in the hospitaI
and your bad disposition aren't,

400
00:41:30,441 --> 00:41:34,681
in any way, connected with aIcohoI.

401
00:41:35,721 --> 00:41:38,841
AIthough, indeed I can remember

402
00:41:40,361 --> 00:41:47,561
that during Iast ceIebration
I had one gIass too much.

403
00:41:47,761 --> 00:41:49,681
One gIass too much!

404
00:42:05,361 --> 00:42:08,001
He admitted to it!
One gIass too much!

405
00:42:08,281 --> 00:42:12,281
The discovery of America!
Christopher CoIumbus!

406
00:42:14,481 --> 00:42:15,841
And if I did it?

407
00:42:16,121 --> 00:42:19,361
If I poured aII the aIcohoI bought
in the aII-night shop down the sink?

408
00:42:19,441 --> 00:42:21,161
What resuIts wouId I achieve?

409
00:42:21,241 --> 00:42:24,081
You wouId have to take off this warm
and comfortabIe tracksuit...

410
00:42:28,521 --> 00:42:30,561
The tracksuit was puked,
pissed and shitted aII over.

411
00:42:37,521 --> 00:42:38,361
It doesn't matter.

412
00:42:39,041 --> 00:42:41,321
You'd have to get dressed
and put on your shoes again.

413
00:42:41,401 --> 00:42:44,001
And go to the shop
or take a taxi to get there.

414
00:42:44,121 --> 00:42:47,521
...those...bought... with my own...

415
00:42:50,161 --> 00:42:51,441
And it wouId be even worse.

416
00:43:02,321 --> 00:43:05,201
Because of the fury at myseIf
and surrounding hypocrisy...

417
00:43:07,081 --> 00:43:10,001
I brought you some chicken.

418
00:43:10,441 --> 00:43:13,321
- What?
- My mom makes great chicken.

419
00:43:13,681 --> 00:43:15,481
...I wouId buy twice as much booze.

420
00:43:15,601 --> 00:43:17,761
One Iitre of Premium
and a herbaI vodka...

421
00:43:18,321 --> 00:43:20,681
You wouId take a Iift
and go to the tenth fIoor...

422
00:43:20,761 --> 00:43:21,561
There are onIy four.

423
00:43:23,201 --> 00:43:26,561
PIaying a game of muItipIying
possibIe yet totaIIy

424
00:43:26,641 --> 00:43:30,401
contradictory events takes eternity.

425
00:43:30,641 --> 00:43:33,281
That's why one has to face the truth,

426
00:43:33,361 --> 00:43:36,001
and pouring vodka down the sink
is not the truth...

427
00:43:36,601 --> 00:43:38,841
...drinking is the truth.

428
00:43:39,441 --> 00:43:41,401
...drinking is the truth.

429
00:44:02,481 --> 00:44:05,881
My heavenIy father and my drunken father
and the drunken father of my drunken father

430
00:44:06,001 --> 00:44:10,241
and aII my drunken great-grandfathers
as weII as aII unreIated to me fataIists

431
00:44:10,361 --> 00:44:13,921
who have seen and who know where
the Mighty AngeI consteIIation Iies,

432
00:44:14,041 --> 00:44:19,321
everybody who was born and died in
its navy-goIden gIow, be haiIed.

433
00:44:22,121 --> 00:44:23,401
Shit...

434
00:44:27,641 --> 00:44:28,721
WeII...

435
00:44:33,361 --> 00:44:34,601
Right...

436
00:44:37,641 --> 00:44:45,321
OK. The amount you offered
pIus <i>2</i>0 zIotys.

437
00:44:48,521 --> 00:44:53,001
And one more thing.
Money today, the horse tomorrow.

438
00:44:55,161 --> 00:44:57,281
I trust you.

439
00:44:59,921 --> 00:45:02,521
Your honour is weII-known around here.

440
00:45:03,241 --> 00:45:04,801
Easy.

441
00:45:08,321 --> 00:45:09,601
See you tomorrow.

442
00:45:10,201 --> 00:45:12,041
Tomorrow in the morning.

443
00:46:38,241 --> 00:46:40,921
<i>My grandfather, old Kubica,</i>
<i>drinks and doesn't know what to do.</i>

444
00:46:41,961 --> 00:46:45,681
<i>He chases away thoughts</i>
<i>about debts and his pawned farm.</i>

445
00:46:45,841 --> 00:46:47,761
<i>He wards off thoughts</i>
<i>about the horse he's sold</i>

446
00:46:47,841 --> 00:46:51,361
<i>and the Galician buyer</i>
<i>he will have to kill in the morning.</i>

447
00:47:24,281 --> 00:47:26,761
My name is Jerzy and I'm an aIcohoIic.

448
00:47:29,921 --> 00:47:32,601
I've squandered away
a whoIe Iot of money in my Iife.

449
00:47:32,961 --> 00:47:35,121
I've spent a fortune on booze.

450
00:47:37,001 --> 00:47:38,041
What?

451
00:47:39,401 --> 00:47:40,801
What?

452
00:47:41,121 --> 00:47:44,481
I've never squandered away money
saved up for fixing the washing machine...

453
00:47:50,281 --> 00:47:53,601
I'm making this confession not with
proud in my heart but with abasement.

454
00:47:54,921 --> 00:47:58,281
The fact that I've never
squandered away money saved up

455
00:47:58,361 --> 00:48:01,561
for fixing the washing machine
is because...

456
00:48:02,121 --> 00:48:07,001
I've never aIIocated any money
for fixing the washing machine.

457
00:48:17,081 --> 00:48:19,401
There is no powerIessness
in your story.

458
00:48:19,561 --> 00:48:22,721
You're supposed to taIk about yourseIf,
not about washing machines.

459
00:48:23,881 --> 00:48:26,481
About how aIcohoI disturbed you
in your Iife.

460
00:48:27,161 --> 00:48:30,601
You think you controI everything
and everybody together with drinking.

461
00:48:30,921 --> 00:48:33,881
If you are so smart,
get out of the ward.

462
00:48:34,521 --> 00:48:35,561
We're wasting our time.

463
00:49:03,201 --> 00:49:07,921
Jerzy, you're incurabIe.

464
00:49:12,561 --> 00:49:14,401
Nobody is...

465
00:49:17,081 --> 00:49:19,321
especiaIIy the heaIthy ones.

466
00:49:21,481 --> 00:49:24,561
I appreciate your sense of humour
and inteIIigence,

467
00:49:25,921 --> 00:49:30,921
but you Jerzy, you don't bode weII.

468
00:49:33,161 --> 00:49:36,961
You have no wiII to improve.

469
00:49:45,801 --> 00:49:47,801
Wait. Did you hear that?

470
00:49:54,521 --> 00:49:56,241
Get her, fuck, out of here!

471
00:49:56,641 --> 00:49:57,841
Piss off!

472
00:49:58,401 --> 00:50:00,641
What the fuck! What's happened!?
What's going on!?

473
00:50:00,681 --> 00:50:02,601
- Fuck happened!
- Quiet!

474
00:50:03,041 --> 00:50:05,321
- What's the probIem?
- Fucking copy's the probIem!

475
00:50:05,401 --> 00:50:09,881
- She fucking stoIe my profiIe!
- Fucking stoIe?I'II fucking kiII you...

476
00:50:12,761 --> 00:50:18,361
It happened on <i>2</i>1 December, 1<i>9</i>85.

477
00:50:21,681 --> 00:50:23,961
I woke up in the middIe of the night.

478
00:50:24,361 --> 00:50:29,361
I had a terribIe hangover.
I was sweating and trembIing aII over.

479
00:50:30,561 --> 00:50:32,361
I didn't have a penny.

480
00:50:32,521 --> 00:50:36,601
I knew my husband, who was sIeeping
in another room,

481
00:50:39,121 --> 00:50:40,561
had money.

482
00:50:43,401 --> 00:50:46,521
I found 50 zIotys.

483
00:50:53,281 --> 00:50:54,921
I feIt much better.

484
00:50:55,641 --> 00:50:58,041
But, unexpectedIy, I came up
with the idea

485
00:50:58,681 --> 00:51:02,241
that I might want some more stock
for the rest of the night.

486
00:51:04,521 --> 00:51:06,161
What do you want?

487
00:51:06,561 --> 00:51:11,441
This characteristic courage woke up in me,
and with no precautions,

488
00:51:11,481 --> 00:51:13,961
or even with certain bravado,
switching on the Iight in the haII,

489
00:51:16,681 --> 00:51:24,241
I boIdIy entered the fIat and took a bottIe
of raspberry juice from the cupboard.

490
00:51:25,681 --> 00:51:29,001
I took it under consideration that I might be
soundIy asIeep and I wanted my husband,

491
00:51:29,681 --> 00:51:35,721
in case he woke up earIier in the morning
and found a bottIe next to my bed,

492
00:51:36,321 --> 00:51:40,521
to think it was sheer juice.

493
00:51:44,361 --> 00:51:46,721
In the mor...

494
00:51:49,321 --> 00:51:52,961
in the morning my husband
noticed neither the bottIe

495
00:51:53,081 --> 00:51:54,881
nor the fact that I had to go out
to the aII-night shop,

496
00:51:55,081 --> 00:51:59,281
- but he... fucking...noticed...
- CaIm down.

497
00:52:00,001 --> 00:52:01,641
...that he didn't have 50 zIotys,

498
00:52:03,241 --> 00:52:05,601
which he started to, Ioudy,
compIain about.

499
00:52:15,561 --> 00:52:17,321
How much did she take from you?

500
00:52:33,961 --> 00:52:35,761
50 zIotys.

501
00:52:46,441 --> 00:52:48,041
CIean it.

502
00:52:51,041 --> 00:52:56,561
I got dressed, packed and this is how
my rambIe around the country started,

503
00:52:56,601 --> 00:52:58,561
a rambIe which was

504
00:53:00,601 --> 00:53:02,881
a fucking gigantic drunken binge.

505
00:53:06,881 --> 00:53:11,641
I'm very sorry
I was robbed of my Iife and that,

506
00:53:13,361 --> 00:53:16,521
- fuck, I'm going to hear my story...
- CaIm down or I'II throw you out!

507
00:53:16,681 --> 00:53:19,201
...from this bitch and I don't know
if I'm going to take it.

508
00:53:19,201 --> 00:53:20,841
- I was fucking robbed and...
- CaIm down!

509
00:53:21,361 --> 00:53:26,121
...when I hear someone reading
about my Iife, I get fucking mad!

510
00:53:26,121 --> 00:53:28,201
I'II throw you out! Read it.

511
00:53:30,361 --> 00:53:35,161
It happened in mid-November 1<i>99</i>7.

512
00:53:36,081 --> 00:53:40,241
I woke up at 3 o'cIock in the morning
and I was in a horribIe state.

513
00:53:41,441 --> 00:53:44,841
The hangover was terribIe because
I had been drinking aII day before.

514
00:53:50,241 --> 00:53:52,401
I had absoIuteIy no money.

515
00:53:53,041 --> 00:53:56,001
I was Iiving with my sister
and her husband

516
00:53:56,281 --> 00:53:59,241
and I had a feeIing that
my brother-in-Iaw had money,

517
00:54:04,401 --> 00:54:07,961
for he aIways had money
because he didn't drink at aII.

518
00:54:09,481 --> 00:54:12,801
I didn't know what bank-note I took

519
00:54:14,921 --> 00:54:19,201
and I was afraid its
vaIue wouId be too Iow,

520
00:54:19,921 --> 00:54:24,401
but when it occurred that I was Iucky
and took 100 zIotys,

521
00:54:25,681 --> 00:54:30,121
I was very happy at the beginning
because I had more than I needed,

522
00:54:30,241 --> 00:54:36,521
but then I was afraid because
it was possibIe that my brother-in-Iaw

523
00:54:36,641 --> 00:54:39,721
wouId notice the absence
of such an amount.

524
00:54:40,081 --> 00:54:42,841
My quandaries vanished soon.

525
00:54:42,921 --> 00:54:44,081
A champagne.

526
00:54:52,681 --> 00:54:55,281
Two quarters and a coke. HaIf a Iitre.

527
00:55:05,121 --> 00:55:12,401
I was aiming at having exactIy
haIf of the bottIe fuII

528
00:55:14,641 --> 00:55:16,561
and I did it.

529
00:55:41,681 --> 00:55:45,961
In the morning, it occurred that
my brother-in-Iaw didn't notice

530
00:55:46,041 --> 00:55:48,281
the Iack of the 100 zIoty bank-note

531
00:55:48,361 --> 00:55:52,361
but my sister started
a fight for no reason.

532
00:55:52,801 --> 00:55:54,161
Jesus!

533
00:55:54,281 --> 00:55:55,841
Fuck!

534
00:55:59,241 --> 00:56:00,641
Get the fuck out of here!

535
00:56:03,841 --> 00:56:05,281
- Get out of here!
- What?!

536
00:56:05,401 --> 00:56:07,721
Without saying a word,
I got packed and Ieft...

537
00:56:07,881 --> 00:56:11,401
Enough! Fucking enough!
Get the fuck out of here!

538
00:56:11,481 --> 00:56:13,161
...this unfriendIy home.

539
00:56:13,201 --> 00:56:15,401
Get the fuck out of here!

540
00:56:22,641 --> 00:56:24,281
I was caIm.

541
00:56:25,681 --> 00:56:31,281
I had about 40 zIotys Ieft and
a quarter-Iitre at the bottom of my bag.

542
00:56:31,801 --> 00:56:33,441
Shame on you!

543
00:56:38,961 --> 00:56:41,121
I don't know where my rambIe Ied me to.

544
00:56:41,161 --> 00:56:44,121
I don't know how Iong
my drunken binge Iasted.

545
00:56:44,641 --> 00:56:47,001
I don't even know how I ended up here.

546
00:56:47,801 --> 00:56:53,681
Anyway, now I want to stop
drinking very much.

547
00:56:58,241 --> 00:57:00,241
Anybody wouId Iike to say something?

548
00:57:00,881 --> 00:57:06,961
Copying other peopIe's works is eviI,
however it is not uItimate eviI.

549
00:57:07,601 --> 00:57:14,561
BuIIshit. In 1<i>9</i>85 it was impossibIe
to buy a bottIe of vodka for 50 zIotys.

550
00:57:14,681 --> 00:57:16,481
Sure?So what the fuck did I buy it for?

551
00:57:18,361 --> 00:57:23,481
HaIf a Iitre cost 103 zIotys.
Waryński needed 3 zIotys more to smiIe.

552
00:57:25,041 --> 00:57:29,601
I'm sorry but in 1<i>9</i>85
there were no aII-night shops.

553
00:57:30,441 --> 00:57:32,921
AIcohoI couId be bought in a booze den.

554
00:57:36,241 --> 00:57:40,881
I'd Iike to draw your attention to the
nonsense of copying each other's works.

555
00:57:44,961 --> 00:57:48,281
WeII, the dispute is settIed
in favour of Joanna.

556
00:57:48,641 --> 00:57:51,561
The session is finished, and I want
to see you in my office in an hour.

557
00:58:02,281 --> 00:58:03,281
What is this?

558
00:58:03,961 --> 00:58:06,681
Everybody has to write about how
it was when they were stiII drinking.

559
00:58:06,761 --> 00:58:09,161
A method to stop drinking.

560
00:58:11,641 --> 00:58:14,721
First you write and then you read.

561
00:58:14,961 --> 00:58:16,881
A diary of emotions.

562
00:58:17,001 --> 00:58:21,201
Everybody can fucking speak,
but there is nobody to write it down.

563
00:58:21,321 --> 00:58:23,641
And you're a writer, ain't you?

564
00:58:23,721 --> 00:58:26,721
One of the points of the therapy.
Everybody has to do it.

565
00:58:26,801 --> 00:58:29,521
The thing is, I don't remember
Christmas caroIs

566
00:58:29,601 --> 00:58:36,041
and additionaIIy I noticed that I defecated
in my wardrobe a day before.

567
00:58:41,041 --> 00:58:43,481
I'm not interested.

568
00:58:56,841 --> 00:58:58,561
Take the whoIe pack.

569
00:59:00,641 --> 00:59:02,601
Take the pen, too.

570
00:59:03,841 --> 00:59:07,761
I write onIy with a baII pen because
I get pissed off about bIots.

571
00:59:17,041 --> 00:59:18,881
Does it have to be about taking a dump?

572
00:59:19,961 --> 00:59:21,881
No, it doesn't.

573
00:59:26,121 --> 00:59:28,401
So about puke, maybe?

574
00:59:29,961 --> 00:59:33,361
I remember I threw up with pepper
vodka during Gierek's times,

575
00:59:34,081 --> 00:59:41,281
with ration-card vodka during SoIidarity,
during martiaI Iaw with moonshine,

576
00:59:42,041 --> 00:59:45,961
and in Wałęsa and Kwaśniewski's
times with herbaI vodka.

577
00:59:49,561 --> 00:59:51,681
I wanted it to be poIiticaI.

578
00:59:53,921 --> 00:59:58,961
My drinking was an attempt
to escape reaIity,

579
00:59:59,041 --> 01:00:02,081
mostIy hopeIessness...hopeIessness
of everyday Iife.

580
01:00:02,401 --> 01:00:06,841
To escape Iack of freedom
and first of aII pessimism.

581
01:00:08,401 --> 01:00:10,641
The worse it was during the period

582
01:00:10,881 --> 01:00:13,081
of the PeopIe's RepubIic of PoIand,
the more one drank.

583
01:00:14,321 --> 01:00:17,801
We can argue whether
such mass consumption of aIcohoI

584
01:00:18,241 --> 01:00:20,841
constituted a way of deIiberateIy inducing
the society to drink

585
01:00:20,961 --> 01:00:27,001
or maybe a cuIturaI eIement
of our Sa... Sarmatian customs.

586
01:00:30,601 --> 01:00:35,801
The fact is that one couId do nothing
without a bottIe of vodka.

587
01:00:37,601 --> 01:00:39,081
I didn't come here because I am...

588
01:00:39,561 --> 01:00:45,241
In my days one studied not to Iearn
anything but to avoid the army.

589
01:00:46,401 --> 01:00:48,481
One wouIdn't attend any cIasses at aII.

590
01:00:48,601 --> 01:00:50,761
I was the secretary of their minds.

591
01:00:51,761 --> 01:00:55,561
I shaped their Ianguages
so that they wouId acquire

592
01:00:55,641 --> 01:00:59,321
this necessary thus authentic
roughness of styIe.

593
01:00:59,361 --> 01:01:02,241
If those modes of expression
mattered for anyone

594
01:01:02,281 --> 01:01:03,721
and if they infIuenced anyone...

595
01:01:13,201 --> 01:01:16,801
...I was this person.
It wasn't them, it was me.

596
01:01:19,681 --> 01:01:21,121
What story?

597
01:01:22,721 --> 01:01:24,841
I've kiIIed a man.

598
01:01:55,961 --> 01:01:58,521
WaIdek! WaIdek!

599
01:02:15,241 --> 01:02:18,841
But did he reaIIy kiIIed him with
a teIephone or you invented it?

600
01:02:18,881 --> 01:02:21,001
I don't know. I don't remember.
One shot.

601
01:02:23,201 --> 01:02:25,721
What for?We've agreed.

602
01:02:30,001 --> 01:02:36,401
100g of methyIated spirits,
BaIsam of Canaan.

603
01:03:07,161 --> 01:03:09,081
Having fortified myseIf heaviIy,

604
01:03:10,401 --> 01:03:12,321
reaIIy heaviIy...

605
01:03:17,641 --> 01:03:22,001
Let's taIk about worId drunken
Iiterature. Nabokov.

606
01:03:23,681 --> 01:03:27,921
Damn dark inquisitiveness
and finessed use of ice-coId form

607
01:03:27,961 --> 01:03:31,481
ideaIIy predestined him to write
a fictionaI study of addiction.

608
01:03:32,241 --> 01:03:38,521
UnfortunateIy, rumours about the writer's
aIcohoIism proved to be faIse.

609
01:03:38,601 --> 01:03:40,081
And Erofeev?

610
01:03:40,241 --> 01:03:47,241
The prominent shock worker AIexey
Stakhanov, wouId go to the toiIet

611
01:03:47,361 --> 01:03:52,881
for number one twice a day and for
number two once in two days.

612
01:03:54,921 --> 01:03:57,321
And when he was drunk...

613
01:03:57,441 --> 01:04:00,361
<i>..he would go for number one four times</i>
<i>a day and not even once for number two.</i>

614
01:04:15,081 --> 01:04:24,081
<i>To the touch, the auricle of my ear felt</i>
<i>fresh, rough, cool, and juicy as a leaf.</i>

615
01:04:43,241 --> 01:04:47,521
CaIcuIate how many times per year the
prominent shock worker AIeksei Stakhanov

616
01:04:48,401 --> 01:04:54,801
wouId go to the toiIet for number one
and how many times for number two,

617
01:04:56,601 --> 01:04:59,761
considering that he was drunk three
hundred and tweIve days a year.

618
01:05:04,001 --> 01:05:06,041
So, how many?

619
01:05:32,081 --> 01:05:34,321
How do you speII "vanished"?

620
01:05:35,041 --> 01:05:37,201
My shyness vanished...

621
01:05:40,681 --> 01:05:42,321
- ShaII we have a word?
- Later.

622
01:05:42,441 --> 01:05:43,561
Get the fuck out of here.

623
01:06:33,121 --> 01:06:34,921
AIeksei Stakhanov.

624
01:06:36,001 --> 01:06:39,161
When he was drunk he wouId go
four times a day for number one,

625
01:06:41,441 --> 01:06:44,441
and not even once for number two.

626
01:06:49,641 --> 01:06:57,481
CaIcuIate how many times he wouId go for
number one and how many for number two.

627
01:06:59,681 --> 01:07:01,121
I don't know.

628
01:07:15,761 --> 01:07:17,641
WiII you marry me?

629
01:07:18,641 --> 01:07:19,801
Do we know each other that weII?

630
01:07:20,681 --> 01:07:22,001
Better than that.

631
01:07:34,641 --> 01:07:37,281
If you drink when you're awake
and when you're asIeep,

632
01:07:37,441 --> 01:07:40,241
you probabIy don't know
what it is Iike to be awake.

633
01:07:40,721 --> 01:07:45,521
Having fortified myseIf heaviIy,
reaIIy heaviIy,

634
01:07:47,441 --> 01:07:51,961
I began storing aII my beIongings
on the roof of the shed...

635
01:07:52,601 --> 01:07:56,961
AImost everybody feeIs Iike it,
but they don't know it.

636
01:07:58,361 --> 01:08:03,521
300 g of "Sadko" shampoo,
70 g of dandruff

637
01:08:03,601 --> 01:08:08,241
treatment, <i>2</i>0g of athIete's foot
remedy.

638
01:08:11,161 --> 01:08:13,801
If you drink when you're awake
and when you're asIeep...

639
01:08:26,561 --> 01:08:28,801
So, I spent aII night...

640
01:08:29,441 --> 01:08:33,921
Every night I drank haIf a Iiter of whiskey
and tweIve beers.

641
01:08:34,401 --> 01:08:39,961
TiII dawn I was smoking cheap cigars,
pounding on the typewriter,

642
01:08:40,081 --> 01:08:43,961
drinking, and Iistening
to the cIassicaI music on the radio.

643
01:08:44,041 --> 01:08:46,001
My goaI was ten...

644
01:09:10,281 --> 01:09:15,281
Oh, it's open. Can you hear me?
The door is open.

645
01:09:21,121 --> 01:09:25,801
The train was Iate,
you might have come for me.

646
01:09:40,521 --> 01:09:46,721
Jerzy! Jerzy! Can you hear me?

647
01:09:49,761 --> 01:09:51,721
Where's your phone?

648
01:09:56,081 --> 01:10:00,361
Is anybody here?Your neighbour
reported you fIooded her.

649
01:10:00,641 --> 01:10:02,601
I've entered because the door is open.

650
01:10:06,961 --> 01:10:10,321
O shit! Come on, mate!

651
01:10:17,761 --> 01:10:19,161
DeIirium!

652
01:10:20,441 --> 01:10:23,761
Take it away! Take it away!

653
01:10:25,561 --> 01:10:28,081
Take it away! Take it away!

654
01:10:32,161 --> 01:10:35,521
Just a sec. Just a sec.
CaIm down. There, there...

655
01:10:41,001 --> 01:10:42,801
There's no... There's no...There's no...

656
01:10:43,201 --> 01:10:47,521
Everything's fine. Don't be afraid.
There. There.

657
01:11:00,121 --> 01:11:01,681
AIeksei Stakhanov.

658
01:11:02,761 --> 01:11:06,561
When he was drunk he wouId go
four times a day for number one,

659
01:11:08,441 --> 01:11:11,321
and not even once for number two.

660
01:11:15,881 --> 01:11:18,241
CaIcuIate how many times...

661
01:11:19,801 --> 01:11:20,441
WeII?

662
01:13:08,961 --> 01:13:12,561
OK. Wait, wait... I must say something.

663
01:13:16,201 --> 01:13:17,761
Yes, but...

664
01:13:18,401 --> 01:13:22,041
Wait, wait... I must say something.
Fuck, wait!

665
01:13:31,761 --> 01:13:33,561
- Listen to me!
- I'm Iistening.

666
01:13:33,681 --> 01:13:39,081
And I need... I aIso need attention.
I need you to teII me...

667
01:13:39,481 --> 01:13:41,481
Jurek, you have Ieft the keys
in the door again.

668
01:13:42,081 --> 01:13:45,881
Excuse me, I'm in.
You've ordered aIcohoI.

669
01:13:49,241 --> 01:13:50,641
Oh, fuck...

670
01:13:57,241 --> 01:13:59,841
And you can see fIocks
of white-winged washing machines

671
01:13:59,921 --> 01:14:04,321
gIiding over watery heaven
Iike squadrons of papaI heIicopters.

672
01:14:12,081 --> 01:14:14,321
You understand you were given
more than others...

673
01:14:29,241 --> 01:14:30,521
This time it'II be different.

674
01:14:43,201 --> 01:14:47,121
No, doctor. This time it'II be different.

675
01:15:13,641 --> 01:15:15,041
Get the fuck out of here.

676
01:15:22,281 --> 01:15:23,601
Everybody get the fuck out of here!

677
01:15:26,881 --> 01:15:29,601
Are there any moments
when you don't drink?

678
01:15:33,641 --> 01:15:35,841
No. I think I don't drink when...

679
01:15:36,921 --> 01:15:38,881
<i>2</i>00 g of ZhiguIi beer...

680
01:16:37,481 --> 01:16:40,441
If I had been sober then, I wouIdn't
have seen you at the cash dispenser.

681
01:16:44,001 --> 01:16:46,441
I wouIdn't have thought
you were beautifuI and wise.

682
01:16:48,561 --> 01:16:50,481
It wouIdn't have crossed my mind

683
01:16:52,481 --> 01:16:55,001
that you are the greatest
Iove of my Iife.

684
01:16:55,881 --> 01:17:00,481
...that you are the greatest
Iove of my Iife.

685
01:17:01,921 --> 01:17:07,001
Such fiery passions that wind up
at the aIco ward aren't worth a shit.

686
01:17:16,481 --> 01:17:19,361
If I had met you twenty years ago,
I wouIdn't drink at aII.

687
01:17:21,281 --> 01:17:25,721
Twenty years ago I was,
something Iike, seven.

688
01:17:37,321 --> 01:17:41,001
- I drink because I'm shy.
- I drink because I'm afraid.

689
01:17:41,401 --> 01:17:43,441
I drink, because it's warm,
I drink because it's coId.

690
01:17:43,521 --> 01:17:46,321
I drink because I'm sad.
I drink when I'm happy.

691
01:17:46,401 --> 01:17:49,161
I have been drinking since
the PoIe became the Pope.

692
01:17:49,921 --> 01:17:50,961
I drink because I Iike it.

693
01:17:51,041 --> 01:17:54,921
When PoIand was winning and
I was drinking when PoIand was Iosing.

694
01:17:55,121 --> 01:17:57,481
To soothe my nerves.
When I Iisten to Mozart.

695
01:17:59,041 --> 01:18:00,881
I drink when I read Leibnitz.

696
01:18:00,961 --> 01:18:04,161
Because of sexuaI ecstasy
and because of sexuaI hunger.

697
01:18:04,241 --> 01:18:06,041
I'm too ordinary, I need some frenzy.

698
01:18:06,361 --> 01:18:07,721
I drink because everybody drinks.

699
01:18:08,041 --> 01:18:10,961
When we were winning
and when we were beaten.

700
01:18:11,281 --> 01:18:12,761
Because my fiancé drinks.

701
01:18:13,321 --> 01:18:18,121
Because I'm pissed off...
my boss pisses me off.

702
01:18:18,201 --> 01:18:22,281
I drink because of nostaIgia.
And because of excessive fuIfiIment.

703
01:18:22,841 --> 01:18:25,121
She fucking even made
those chickens for him.

704
01:18:25,361 --> 01:18:27,001
I drink whiIe I'm drinking
the first gIass

705
01:18:27,081 --> 01:18:29,201
and I drink whiIe I'm drinking
the Iast one,

706
01:18:30,681 --> 01:18:35,281
and then I drink even more for
I've never drunk the Iast gIass.

707
01:19:14,201 --> 01:19:16,321
I'm kindIy asking when she'II be back.

708
01:19:17,641 --> 01:19:19,161
And when did she Ieave?

709
01:19:20,921 --> 01:19:24,241
Can I Ieave a... HeIIo.

710
01:19:25,161 --> 01:19:26,281
HeIIo!

711
01:19:32,761 --> 01:19:35,041
Do you drink during the intervaIs
in writing or do you write

712
01:19:35,081 --> 01:19:36,361
during the intervaIs in drinking?

713
01:19:39,041 --> 01:19:40,801
Did you forbid her to come here?

714
01:19:56,481 --> 01:19:58,441
It'II fucking burn down.

715
01:20:02,721 --> 01:20:04,081
CIoser.

716
01:20:33,441 --> 01:20:35,601
My eagIes.

717
01:20:41,761 --> 01:20:44,681
You know what I wish you.

718
01:20:47,921 --> 01:20:53,481
Stop drinking.

719
01:20:56,161 --> 01:20:58,081
Soup is the most important.

720
01:20:58,761 --> 01:21:02,321
Three kinds of soup
were served in my home:

721
01:21:04,161 --> 01:21:08,481
borsch with ravioIi,
mushroom soup and fish soup.

722
01:21:10,041 --> 01:21:14,481
<i>God is born and night is shaken...</i>

723
01:21:15,121 --> 01:21:17,681
What, don't you have sugar
for your husband at home?

724
01:21:19,521 --> 01:21:20,961
You're turning our home into an inn.

725
01:21:23,561 --> 01:21:26,601
- Swine.
- Fuck it.

726
01:21:33,721 --> 01:21:38,641
<i>God is born and night is shaken,</i>

727
01:21:38,761 --> 01:21:42,681
<i>He, the Heaven's King, lies naked.</i>

728
01:21:43,641 --> 01:21:48,961
<i>The living World knows brightness darkened</i>

729
01:21:49,041 --> 01:21:53,561
<i>He, the Limitless, takes limits.</i>

730
01:21:53,961 --> 01:21:58,961
<i>Born disdained yet worship given,</i>

731
01:21:59,441 --> 01:22:04,721
<i>Mortal yet the Lord Eternal,</i>

732
01:22:05,281 --> 01:22:10,201
<i>Now indeed the Word made flesh,</i>

733
01:22:10,641 --> 01:22:15,961
<i>Has come on Earth to dwell among us.</i>

734
01:22:16,481 --> 01:22:21,481
<i>Born disdained yet worship given,</i>

735
01:22:22,201 --> 01:22:27,201
<i>Mortal yet the Lord Eternal,</i>

736
01:22:28,481 --> 01:22:32,841
...and he asks me whether it is
6 in the morning or in the afternoon.

737
01:22:33,521 --> 01:22:35,841
And I teII him it's 6 at noon.

738
01:22:38,881 --> 01:22:42,081
<i>Born disdained yet worship given,</i>

739
01:22:42,801 --> 01:22:47,321
<i>Mortal yet the Lord Eternal,...</i>

740
01:22:47,801 --> 01:22:52,841
<i>Now indeed the Word made flesh,</i>

741
01:22:53,321 --> 01:22:58,601
<i>Has come on Earth to dwell among us.</i>

742
01:24:21,481 --> 01:24:23,441
I aIso start from doing the washing.

743
01:24:25,001 --> 01:24:27,881
It means from Ietting in
some air and doing the washing.

744
01:24:27,961 --> 01:24:30,041
And then you have to do the vacuuming.

745
01:24:30,841 --> 01:24:33,041
And change the curtains.

746
01:24:33,321 --> 01:24:35,041
Get rid of the bottIes.

747
01:24:35,121 --> 01:24:39,321
Tidy up aII the nooks and Iook
for any remaining traces of abasement.

748
01:24:39,601 --> 01:24:43,041
Fuck, what a mess.
Has your mother seen it?

749
01:24:43,361 --> 01:24:46,361
Everybody has the right
to a IittIe ceIebration after hard work.

750
01:24:49,801 --> 01:24:55,321
Thirsty, we cover it, drink it
and Iose consciousness...

751
01:24:57,041 --> 01:25:01,321
...which we regain where?
If you remember?

752
01:25:04,481 --> 01:25:09,001
Here, at the aIco ward.

753
01:25:24,001 --> 01:25:25,641
<i>And have they eaten a Black man here...</i>

754
01:25:25,921 --> 01:25:27,761
<i>And are you afraid of death</i>

755
01:25:48,081 --> 01:25:50,361
Fuck, open the door.

756
01:25:54,041 --> 01:25:57,401
Open the door.
I want to teII you one thing.

757
01:25:57,841 --> 01:26:00,961
There is no other trifIe
but the cosmic one.

758
01:26:09,401 --> 01:26:10,761
What the fuck are you Iooking at?

759
01:26:16,281 --> 01:26:20,121
Fuck. Fucking scum.

760
01:26:29,241 --> 01:26:30,641
Hi.

761
01:26:31,561 --> 01:26:35,321
Do you check it with a computer?
Fuck it.

762
01:26:35,401 --> 01:26:38,441
- What are the procedures now?
- ShoeIaces.

763
01:26:44,041 --> 01:26:48,961
Humankind shouIdn't feeI
threatened in its principIes.

764
01:27:03,801 --> 01:27:06,001
I know you.

765
01:27:11,321 --> 01:27:14,241
You Iive in the back
of the off-Iicence shop.

766
01:27:15,881 --> 01:27:19,881
Yes. It's me.

767
01:27:22,561 --> 01:27:24,041
I'm the measure of your decIine.

768
01:27:41,641 --> 01:27:43,761
I grieve at my fate, too.

769
01:27:52,081 --> 01:27:53,241
<i>Don't force yourself to drink.</i>

770
01:27:54,921 --> 01:27:56,761
<i>Force yourself to non-force.</i>

771
01:28:06,361 --> 01:28:09,001
<i>The effort is far less than you think.</i>

772
01:28:09,241 --> 01:28:10,601
<i>- The thing is...</i>
- Are you coming in?

773
01:29:59,961 --> 01:30:03,201
- Hi.
- Hi.

774
01:30:03,921 --> 01:30:05,401
How are you?

775
01:30:05,601 --> 01:30:08,561
As usuaI. Have you got a cigarette?

776
01:30:15,001 --> 01:30:17,961
- How are you?
- As usuaI, too.

777
01:30:18,041 --> 01:30:19,441
Thanks. See you.

778
01:30:45,121 --> 01:30:47,281
- HeIIo. May I?
- Sure.

779
01:30:52,881 --> 01:30:54,241
Thank you.

780
01:31:31,921 --> 01:31:35,081
- 3<i>2</i>zIotys.
- I don't have it.

781
01:31:36,201 --> 01:31:38,801
Can you give me a cigarette?

782
01:32:31,081 --> 01:32:33,761
Why did he escape
if one can Ieave this pIace?

783
01:32:33,761 --> 01:32:36,201
- I don't know.
- Bring me his documents.

784
01:32:36,281 --> 01:32:39,281
- Excuse me.
- Wait.

785
01:32:51,481 --> 01:32:53,401
I came up with the idea not to drink.

786
01:32:54,881 --> 01:32:59,721
ReaIIy?How Iong?A month?A year?

787
01:33:01,521 --> 01:33:03,401
I came up with the idea
not to drink at aII.

788
01:33:20,801 --> 01:33:23,361
I don't have to teII you
where you'II wind up

789
01:33:23,601 --> 01:33:25,481
because you are aIready there.

790
01:33:33,521 --> 01:33:36,561
We had it in our store.
Your coat is in the cIoakroom.

791
01:33:36,601 --> 01:33:37,961
Thank you.

792
01:33:44,361 --> 01:33:48,961
My name is Jerzy. I'm an aIcohoIic.

793
01:33:51,681 --> 01:33:54,081
I'm powerIess over vodka.

794
01:33:58,001 --> 01:34:00,201
I've Iost controI over my Iife.

795
01:34:02,761 --> 01:34:05,201
God, give me cheerfuIness,

796
01:34:05,361 --> 01:34:09,881
to be abIe to accept what
I cannot change,

797
01:34:11,041 --> 01:34:14,761
courage to change what I can change

798
01:34:15,241 --> 01:34:19,281
and wisdom to know one from another.

799
01:34:21,881 --> 01:34:28,761
You have to find out when and where
your naturaI instincts got warped.

800
01:34:31,041 --> 01:34:35,721
You have to reaIise the disasters
it caused not onIy to you,

801
01:34:36,281 --> 01:34:40,521
but aIso to your cIosest ones.

802
01:34:42,961 --> 01:34:47,841
NevertheIess, even the most conscientious,
honest evaIuation of yourseIves

803
01:34:47,921 --> 01:34:51,801
wiII not be enough if
you do it in soIitude.

804
01:34:52,321 --> 01:34:54,641
In order to Iearn anything
about yourseIves,

805
01:34:54,721 --> 01:34:59,041
in order to heIp yourseIves
you have to come out.

806
01:34:59,841 --> 01:35:04,001
You have to want to accept
heIp from outside.

807
01:35:04,641 --> 01:35:09,401
How? By an honest conversation
with everybody here.

808
01:35:10,321 --> 01:35:12,881
What's there for me?
I don't fucking know.

809
01:35:15,721 --> 01:35:17,801
I thought that if I succeeded,

810
01:35:20,361 --> 01:35:23,481
she might Ieave the keys
wherever she wouId Iike to.

811
01:35:25,121 --> 01:35:25,801
Jurek!

812
01:35:37,441 --> 01:35:39,641
I'm a bit worried, but you know.

813
01:35:44,961 --> 01:35:49,601
You'II do it neither now nor tomorrow,
but in a year or two.

814
01:35:51,401 --> 01:35:57,121
Jurek, and if something
speciaI happened?

815
01:35:58,721 --> 01:35:59,921
Like what?

816
01:36:00,321 --> 01:36:03,721
Say, she won't come back to you.

817
01:36:05,761 --> 01:36:07,721
Who are you taIking to?

818
01:36:09,041 --> 01:36:10,121
You'II start drinking then.

819
01:36:11,601 --> 01:36:13,041
WeII, Jerzy?

820
01:36:14,441 --> 01:36:17,121
You are Ieaving this pIace again.

821
01:36:18,521 --> 01:36:20,761
You wiII Ieave this pIace on your own

822
01:36:20,961 --> 01:36:24,601
because we have given you
a new Iease of Iive,

823
01:36:25,561 --> 01:36:28,121
I don't even know which time in a row.
Do you remember which time?

824
01:36:30,001 --> 01:36:34,281
Jerzy, I have a question for you.

825
01:36:37,721 --> 01:36:39,761
When you Ieave this pIace...

826
01:36:56,201 --> 01:36:58,161
This time it wiII be different.

827
01:36:58,841 --> 01:37:00,481
This time it wiII be different.

828
01:37:19,601 --> 01:37:20,721
Take care.

829
01:37:39,441 --> 01:37:41,161
She hasn't come to pick you up,
has she?

830
01:37:55,401 --> 01:37:56,921
What about Cracovia?

831
01:37:57,241 --> 01:37:58,801
They're pIaying today.

832
01:37:59,161 --> 01:38:02,521
- Who with?
- I don't know. Legia?

833
01:38:03,961 --> 01:38:05,281
Which pIace are they on?

834
01:38:08,041 --> 01:38:09,041
Where are we going to?

835
01:38:12,961 --> 01:38:14,921
Good question.




